http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rOH5HD-VpfU

needed something to get me out of this crap ass mood i've been in.
HAHA, jake and amir all day, everyday.

I know I didn't show it earlier, but that's cause im good at hiding how I feel. Didn't you notice the uneasy vibe I was giving off? I couldn't just sit there and pretend everything was all right. cause it wasn't. I faked a smile for you. I just needed that part of the movie as an excuse to cry. But I am so fed up of wasting tears on you.. I already know nothing's going to change.

Maybe you're too presumptuous about all of this. Taking me for granted is what it feels like. From the top you seem like a different type of guy. Did your own thing, I gave it a try so yeah.. do you want this? f'real? cause if you don't, just let me know. Sooner than later, please.

And if you think that it's okay to tell other girls they're cute and that you wanna lighten their stress, then that means you're fine with me doing that too.

You're conciously giving me permission to do the same.

Is that what you really want? If I'm not what you're looking for, then why are you wasting both our time? If I am, wait on me patiently and see what I got in store, cause I'm gonna represent to the fullest. I'll be there and I promise you no regrets.

Eversince what happened during the Summer, I haven't been wanting to get too close to anyone.. till I met you and we started getting closer.. fuck, i hate sounding gay n shit but i just can't stand the fact that i always cross being disorient with you.

y'know I got mad love for you. I'm in love with you, no lie. But can I trust you when you tell me the same?...

"I don't want you hiding shit from me"
i assumed it was going to be vice-versa
so please, don't call her baby. and don't tell her she's cute. cause she's not..

You understand me, at least you say you do. Lately thats enough for me. Looking for perfect, surrounded by artificial, you're the closest thing to real i've seen. Sure, everyone has their problems, thats a given, yours are the easiest to tolerate..

sooo sick this morning ):
sore throat from a mild fever + screaming my lungs out at yesterdays game.
so martin came over at 10:45ish and brought me some chicken noodle soup :)
thaaaaaaaaaaaank yooooooooooou<3333333 and for my Christmas gift, i'd want

wooo, chilled with the lb's +cathlyn today.
chilled in my room. mostly on the floor.
played cranium. SO HURT.. next time, cathlyns house f'sure.
whats new? provincials and bc catholics bitchzzzzz.
uhhhhh.. should start on my socials essay :\
but wont. obvs. two hour practice after the senior girls'
finals tomorrow, PEEEAAACE TO US!!!
i heard only sarahs gonna be there, PEACE TO US EVEN MORE.
tuesday was fun, chilled with half the team at my house.
ate pizza and played.. cranium haha.. with marr (Y)
aids, if you're reading this, my floam did not "expand" and
get smooshy again!!! ): its still hard and it looks small. ): ): ): ):

t'was the ish.
alexas/brians.
i love brians house.
i love smi.....
i love getting crunk (HAHA not really)
(and since you're prolly reading this) i love martin bato.
the end.